Memory collecting to search for real me.

Today is Earthday. I thanks book, but we need to protect the Earth.

I like to give my thanks for following books, which letting me confirmed what the important thing in my life after the idea of leaving this 3.5 years work. They have helped me to do my 7 years review. 7 years can be long or short accordingly. For me, I felt it is a long time and an important range. Because while writing this article, I just realize who seems unconsciously review myself and see how I feel myself and my current state each 7 years for next movement. Last 7 years review was happened after master graduation, when I had to make decision if I can find a job and stay in the UK or back to Taiwan and stay with family. Last time, I chose back to Taiwan and stay with family. This time, I have done the same decision. I am quitting Vietnam job and back to Taiwan. There was lot of voices. Good and bad. Pity and encourage. But I finally made my decision, after I read the first two books. However, I still have some doubt, and then later books came alone. Especially the fourth book – Bible book for workplace determined my decision. I desire to close to the LORD.

Ask me why I choose back to Taiwan instead change a job and stay in Vietnam.

Though the biggest reason is my desire to closer to the LORD, but there has other reasons. Lot things have happened to me within recent 3 years. Struggling to grown myself, being around by negative people, lack of management and improvement in the organization, relationship with the LORD, family, friends, boyfriend and myself are fading. Through evaluating my relationships and experiences by books and meditation let me see things more crystal and knowing I want to what cherish and take-care myself the mot. 3.5 years in Vietnam, I feel my knowledge and skill do not get improve but fading and unable control my rhythm in all area, and realized what is the most important in the life and what the best for her life and what kind of life she want to be. Thanks for those hard working days, colleagues whose hold different opinions and challenged me, and space given to allow me to think. Realizing I have run away from what I love the most to chasing money or satisfy someone else instead myself was a stupid decision made 3.5 years ago.  

I believe I still got time to correct this mistake.

Helped by Kathrin Sohst,  and Michael Olpin,Sam Bracken that I found my missions is “I love books. Reading allows me to relax and be peace. I like the status in mindfulness which is a mind status in peace and meditation. All my greatest decisions made while I felt peace. I will live my life with full of love, act according to the principle of the LORD, be health and kind, having good routines and habits. I will have lot of great memories with my lovely family and friends and I will collect those memories so able to remind how happiness is, and share with people. I will help people as I can as the LORD named.” As said I realize why I am so unhappy in Vietnam, because I choose the wrong reason to work here. Especially I found my mission. I yet prepare myself ready as full approached my mission. “Take my teaching, and not silver; get knowledge in place of the best gold.” (Proverb 8:10) I was chasing gold but not his wisdom. I yet find my inner peace but looking for challenges and adventure. “
Jesus says to them, Did you never see in the Writings, The stone which the builders put on one side, the same has been made the chief stone of the building: this was the Lord's doing, and it is a wonder in our eyes?” “Any man falling on this stone will be broken, but he on whom it comes down will be crushed to dust.” (Matthew 21:43&45) My root is not strong enough, so I feel unhappy and suffering in challenges.

Although the job hunts could be difficult as I am 32 years old and really not learn much in this job, and many jobs close to my mission which is different fields. However, the desire of closing my mission and the LORD is my strongest support. And I do find peace after make this decision. So here it is my second 7 years review and decision made for next step. I keep praying. In Jesus name. Amen.

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